Friday, January 28, 2005 @ 8:37 PM
Last night was Club Night at Emo's... Nobody was there. Thus, somewhat lame. BUT! There was a redeeming moment to the evening... Mellie and I went up to this group of people to promote the station and I was telling this guy about my show (Girl:"It's called Makeout Music"... Boy:"Whoo! I am good at making out!") and he was being cheesy and randomly slipped me his card with his number on it (apparently he was like some production guy)... Well, I blew him off because he looked 16... A very cute 16, but 16 nonetheless. So, whatever... The show goes on. Well, the headlining band finally gets on stage (The Stingers- some good ol' ska fun) and he is the guitarist/trumpeter/keyboardist, and most likely totally older than me (he had no X on his hand, I did.)... So yes, I felt totally sheepish.
BUT- even if I hadn't thought he was 16- we couldn't have a romance anyway because I AM NOT DATING ANYONE UNTIL I GRADUATE FROM COLLEGE!!! I have no desire to be in a relationship, and for some reason, guys don't believe in not being exclusive. You know, I always thought it- was the girls that wanted the exclusivity- you know, the whole "official boyfriend/girlfriend" thing. Nopes. It's the boys that start freaking out if they see you with someone else. LAME.
I have a bet with Brad- he thinks I won't last the full time until I graduate without an exclusive man. The stakes are 50 bucks. Please! I am totally winning... I only have 2 full semesters left (and the end of this one of course)!!! Yuck. Relationships mean trouble.
And actually, I don't even have a desire to date around either. Blah- I don't really have the time. I know that sounds weird or pretentious or whatever the eff, but I am a fairly busy girl. I work, go to school, do KVRX crap, church, shower (sometimes), sleep (sometimes). The free time I have is extremely precious and is only used for V.I.P.'s. That, and I don't really like anyone right now.
So, I have been in love with these Solar Shields for about 9 months now and for some reason, I never picked them up. My dearest Bean got them for me... aren't they hot??
YOU KNOW IT.
Colleen
Sunday, January 23, 2005 @ 12:56 AM
MY PEOPLE! (To quote the ever admired, ever buffoon-like Prince Humperdink...)
Interim is over and my radio show begins this coming Wednesday. Check out the schedule (My show is called "Makeout Music"):
91.7FM KVRX Austin, TX
You can listen to it (or check out playlists if you peruse at times other than Wednesday from 3-4pm Central Time...) by clicking on the headphones, then clicking the Real Audio link underneath them... If you don't have Real Player, you can get a free version.
There. I made it easy! Now listen to me make mistakes. And of course- you could always call in requests... 512.495.KVRX
Ok, that is enough shameless self-promotion now.
Colleen
Monday, January 17, 2005 @ 6:12 PM
I feel extremely vulnerable right now. I hate sharing the deepest of feelings when they aren't reciprocal. Hell, I hate sharing the deepest of feelings even when they are reciprocal.
However, as vulnerable as I feel, I feel better knowing that my feelings are out there. At least I know that I didn't stop anything from happening because I was too fearful of the aftermath.
I like being broken-hearted. It is such a raw emotion- it's like those sweet and sour lollipops. You know, the Charms ones? It's sweet because you know you truly cared once, and after you suck on that for a while, you feel the sourest of pain hit you.
But- I'm happy. I know now how I have made a number of others feel and I think I needed that.
I got some pretty kickin' shoes- they match this bra and panties and headband and choker that I have... granted no one will see the matching undergarments- but the choker and headband rock the house.
I am SO excited for school to start- hopefully all those radio-television-film boys will help me drown my sorrows temporarily. I am finally in all upper division classes; I'll know for sure that no one is 18. Nice.
Colleen
Wednesday, January 12, 2005 @ 7:02 PM
So, every year when I get my financial aid from ol' UT- I go and get my self at least some crap that I don't need to make myself feel better that I have to give this school about $4,000 of my own money. Here's what I got-
FOR THE EARS:
FOR THE EYES:
Don't be healous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Colleen
Tuesday, January 11, 2005 @ 1:29 AM
I guess I don't have too much to say. Saturday night was fun- it was an El Paso show/sit on the living room floor and listen thing in Austin- nuts. Rob, Philip Tubbs, Vincent with the hot coat, Jimmy, etc. etc. I even saw ol' Haley there! It was nice to see El Paso people are still tight.
Yeah, Mellie, Fiona, Katie, Shane and I went to Kerbey Lane after the show and all the El Paso peeps showed up there, too. It was nuts- it felt so much like Village Inn at that particular moment. It's always weird to see Rob- he reminds me SO much of Thomas.
I received some pretty flowers!! Thank you, sir.
I really want to paint ceramics at one of those "we give you the weird looking thing and some paint and go to it!" places. There's one in Northcross Mall called Hidden Talent. Someone go with me- I want to paint some plates or a cup or something.
So- a few nights ago Katie and I were delirious as usual and she had this awesome desktop on her computer and was singing the glorious theme song for it. I decided to share this perfect and lovely experience with all of you... ENJOY.
Katie covers Madam Mim.
Colleen
Thursday, January 06, 2005 @ 6:34 PM
it takes more time than i've ever had
drains the life from me
makes me want to forget
as young as i was, i felt older back then
more disciplined, stronger and certain
but i was scared to death of eternity
i was saved by grace but destroyed by naivete
and i lied to myself and said it was for the best
and now faith is replaced with a logic so cold
i've disregarded what i was now that i'm older
and i know much more than i did back then
but the more i learn the more i can't understand
and i've become content with this life that i lead
where i drink too much and don't believe in much of anything
and i lie to myself and say 'it's for the best.'
we're moving forward, but holding ourselves back
and we're waiting on something that will never come
Straylight Run - It's For the Best
Colleen
Tuesday, January 04, 2005 @ 7:43 PM
I am at work. That's right suckas- I am stealing wireless internet access from Amy's Ice Cream across the way.
There are bugs flying all around in here... tons of little flies in the cases of high priced eyewear. They are attracted by the light in here when it gets dark outside and fly in. Or maybe they are just attracted to me?
Shane and I went to see a flick and ate some dinner yesterday- it turned out to be really good. Hooray for gassy stomaches and hot, non-baking Mormons. Both make for a wonderful evening.
Nothing new has been going on really... I am anxious for school to start. I know, insane... but I am used to being out and about for 65-70 hours a week and all this extra time is driving me batty. I get lonely too easily I think.
One of my favorite things about working at the ol' Hut is watching all the people go by... tons of families walking by with dogs and ridiculously cute children... I guess it makes me hopeful for the far-off future- I want a yorkshire terrier and way-too-cute-for-their-own-good kids who no one can help adoring. Oh, and of course- the ever wistful, perhaps mythical? hope of the perfect marriage that never grows cold. I'm nowhere near the point that I want to be in order to even consider these things as of yet... too many milestones I plan on reaching before the settling-down point... but the future holds a journey I suppose.
I don't know where I got started on that.